The Fool In Me

Walking up the long driveway of our home, my husband noticed a piece of clothing on the ground, he didn’t think much of it and kept walking. Next another then a third Wrangler was peering out of the snow.
“Looks familiar,” he thought. I was inside sulking, when I hear “My clothes, what are my clothes doing outside?” Fed up with the way he had been treating me, I threw an entire drawer-full of men’s size 2x over the front porch. As the wind blew and the snow began to fall that very morning I thought this would be a good way of expressing my anger.
The door to our bedroom flies open and unkind words fill the air. This was not the response I was hoping for. I wanted him to see the error of his ways, calmly walk in the house, hold me close, apologize on his knees and promise never to treat me ill again. WRONG! We didn’t speak to each other for 3 days and 3 long nights. During this time I cried out to God, “What is wrong with me, thinking such a thing would make him feel sorry for me?”
A verse in Proverbs popped right off the page and into my softening heart, showing me to be the fool. “A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control,” (Proverbs 29:11 NIV). Asking for forgiveness I decided to be the first to apologize. I emerged from my lonely bedroom and followed the TV noises founding my husband reclined in his appropriately named Lazy Boy. I turned the TV off, “I wish to say something to you. I am sorry for letting my anger take control of me and taking it out on your wardrobe.” I turned the TV back on; cleared of my guilt I started walking away. “CLICK”, the room was silent once more as he stood up and gave me a great big bear hug. “I’m sorry too.” He said. Soon we were laughing about the whole incident.
Lord, I turn my anger over to you and ask that you stay in control even when my flesh wants to jump up and scream. Heal my bitterness. Forgive me for when I have taken things out on my spouse and made the situation worse. Thank you for my spouse and their quirks. Help me to think of them and not just me. Show me how to encourage, and support my spouse from this day forward, Amen.
“A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.” (Proverbs 29:11 NIV)


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